Tuesday, July 31, 2018

I am a bloody fool


This Dubai hopes and dreams bite the dust. I took two months and Rs.1,00,150/- to realize that I was taken for a ride. Though the entire process looked fishy from the start, I did not have the strength or smartness of mind to see through the lies and falsehoods. TH Iyer mama says it best, “You were already clutching at straws and this swamps and drowns you over.”
            Okay, where did I go wrong? There was a very stupid FB contact Paarvathy Rajeev who would comment on my posts. I never got friendlier with the female who portrayed herself as a big disciple of Swami Dayananda. It seemed that this female must have crossed my path in AIM FOR SEVA but one is never sure for the mind loses it edge when it comes to names and faces as my clock hits a 50. She vibrated badly in the sense I felt being pursued. There was a certain awkwardness; I had a vague feeling of someone who had fallen for me. Now I am very clear: I learn my lessons well and pUsHpA was my last internet romance. That experience taught that whatever views one forms of people on an online medium just does not hold water in the sunshine of reality. Besides I am in no mood for romance as I was fast losing my shirt with my earnings behave as a stubborn tap that no amount of coaxing would get it to spout water.
            Those days I was lamenting the loss of a job prospect in BANGALORE. That felt a sure thing after an extensive telephonic interview. On 11th May I went down to Whitefield for further round of interviews with the COO and CEO. Everything about Mindlogicx felt right including the salary range of 10-12 lacs per annum. Around 24th May I get a regret letter from them wishing me the best in future endeavours though I am very talented kinds.
            The next day I get a FB message from Paarvathy that read: I have a sister in Dubai who is a recruitment consultant. Pay 100 dirhams for registration and within a month you’ll get placed in a big company.
            Now what is Rs.1850/- when compared to the enormity of my unemployed days? I transfer that money to Uma Gayatri the very next day and forget about the whole thing. The next week I get a mail from Uma saying: I have arranged interviews at Al Futtaim and Bab Al Shams. Come to Dubai immediately.
            It is the first week of June and my mind goes feverish exploring the world of VISAs and air tickets for I am told that that I will be flying for these interviews at my own costs. The lady gratuitously offered a free stay saying, “You can stay with us for couple of days,” and I thought: My god, friends for life. And all my good karma at work!!!! Those were the days of EID and finally on 20th June, Uma writes: The CEO of Al Futtaim is gone for Eid holidays but their HR department went through all your weblinks on the resume and have made a job offer.  A three months contract extendable to another 3 or 6 months based on their needs and suitability and 10,000 dirhams for a monthly compensation. I wanted to negotiate to 12,000 AED but friends like Mani Sir and Shyam advised caution, “Sathya, go along with this offer. Get a toehold in Dubai and it will drastically improve your job profile.” Uma also counselled, “ Sathya, I advise you to take it up for once you are in Dubai, you are free to explore other writing or soft skill options and I will help you source them.” Uma asked me to pay 500 dirhams for processing of work permit and I was too happy and much too eager to transfer Rs. 9,300 the next day. I just couldn’t believe my luck. Even at ADLINE no one interviewed me on the phone instead made a job offer that I thought that this was normal: the company issues a VISIT VISA for two months. The company gets the see the new recruit for it to make its mind on conferring a work permit or not. Frankly not speaking to anyone in Al Futtaim did not cause any doubt in me.
            Then on 27th June (20th anniversary of my heart surgery) I get this devastating news: There is an immigration ban on me and that I had the option of revoking it by paying 3320 AED through a court process. It is here I made a first error of judgement. Rs. 60,000 is a lot of money especially for one who is living out of a personal loan. Ideally I should have asked for more papers like a letter that stated that I had a UAE ban or I should have asked Uma’s mobile number and spoken to her. By now I was interacting with her through emails for a month; I had asked her mobile number couple of times but those requests were stonewalled. I was foolish beyond belief as I liquidated the last one lac from a fixed deposit account and rushed to transfer the money.
            There were creeping of doubts as I was asked to transfer Rs. 9,300 to her personal Canara bank account for the work permit on 20th June. Now another Rs. 60.100 went into the said account a week later as court charges. No company works like that as Uma presented herself as an employee of Horizon Consulting. Uma seemed a super smart recruitment consultant and her language skills on the emails were impeccable. Not one grammatical misconstruction; straight to the point and transactional just as you would expect from a recruitment consultant. I paid 60 k with the knowledge that the court verdict could go either way but since I had nothing at Chennai, I played along.
            I was almost communicating with Uma on emails every couple of days but as July dawned I found the process go slack. I thought: maybe delays in court process. On 14th July, I get a message: Mabrook! Congratulations. The court verdict is in your favour but there is a fine of 2050 AED.
            I connect with Deepak Mehra in the meanwhile and he really was a sober voice in this episode. He said, “Sathya, I will meet this Uma and check the court documents and I will pay out of my pocket. You can reimburse when you are in Dubai and working.”  This was a huge burden off my shoulders before Uma wrote back saying, “I will not interact with Deepak Mehra. You have to trust me otherwise the whole thing is off.”  I write to her saying, “Please show me the Al Futtaim offer letter and the court documents and then I shall pay the court fines.”
            Uma sent me the Al Futtaim offer letter that looked genuine though the HR manager who issued the letter was not on Linkedin as I ran a check. I transferred 30 k saying that the balance 9 k I will pay in person. My almost daily interactions with Uma over emails, she came across as a no-nonsense super-smart recruitment consultant.
            After I pay this money I feel that I am almost in Dubai. My last 9 to 5 job was Adline in Abu Dhabi and that was four years back. Since then I fell off the cliff as I suffered a two years depression before I discovered MINDFULNESS that got me off the anti-depressants and moodswings tablets. So this job offer in UAE looked a divine grace and just what the doctor ordered. I resolve myself and as I do the math: 6 months of Al Futtaim, I break even on HDFC loans.  One year and I begin to FLOAT. Two years in Al Futtaim, it is a RECOVERY. Four years on and I should have 50 lacs in savings and a car; maybe even a woman would find me attractive at those numbers. But I don’t go overdrive as I refuse to buy things for this new Dubai job instead feeling “let the Visa and ticket come in and then I will make all the silly purchases which will not take more than a couple of days.” Only cancelling the BSNL landline would take time, rest is just across the counter purchases for new jocks and briefs and some eatables like muruppudi and pickles kind.
            I go to Nagpur for 3 days Vipassana hoping that the Visa and air ticket would be in Gmail. I find no such thing as we break our silence and our smartphones returned on 26th July and instinctively I knew it was all a sham and I was easy goat to a massive fraud.
            Frankly I did not have any offer in Chennai. The last 13 months were bone dry. I tried my hand at Soft skill training that I fell in love but it had no takers even as I marketed: I will do this program for FREE and if you find it WORKING then you can engage me. It is here a city like CHENNAI feels a graveyard. It does not have entrepreneur spirit that even a Bangalore has in plenty.
            It feels like death for this is the end of a Dubai dream and more than that those mental calculations of reaching a shore of financial safety. I would steel myself with the thought that “The FIFA world cup is over and I will have to be at Al Futtaim till the next edition at Qatar and I have a very good chance the see the games in person for a bucketlist goal.” Now I am left talking to Real estate brokers for selling this flat (always a sick feeling knowing that you have been a complete and consummate failure in life as to sell your dad’s property to survive) and filing a police complaint in cybercrimes.
            There were three other prior instances in life where I played the complete jerk. In 2004 I ventured into a WINE BAR business where I lost 50 k even before the show got started. In 2009 pUsHpA walked out of a relation which I felt was a poor reflection of me. Last year, a movie director, touched me for Rs. 4,500 on false promises to getting my smartphone repaired and Adidas shoes at throwaway prices. But losing Rs.1,00,150/- on this misadventure hurts the most. Now I don’t think I have the mental energy to get up and start looking for other job opportunities. I SELL this thing and fill my life with VIPASSANA and wait for Yama to come and relieve me of this burdensome life. Too poor of people and money, too abandoned and lonely it feels like death would be a blessing at these times. Truly licked and final nail in my career coffin.

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